I am currently in a relationship with a married man. The twist is that I am also married. It has been going on for over a year. I tried to end it many times... but when he begged me not to...I gave in.

I love him so much. And he is very passionate about me. We both say we married our spouse for the wrong reason. We both have children. I know he could be lying to me. .I know there is a great probability that he will stay with her. .hence I keep trying to run from him. His anguish when I breakup with him seems so genuine.

We are secret lovers. . And I don't like that much anymore. However I am in love so deep and I just can't stop. I say to myself everyday "I can't belive this is my life" but he makes me happy in ways my husband does not. And I don't just mean the #love-. I married my husband when I was very young. .and it was not for the right reasons.

We have grown apart and I am a different person now. I don't know if my new guy would ever leave. . But he is perfect for me and I don't know what to do. The only thing I know for sure is that I love him. He always tells me he loves me. I want to believe it so bad however. . I am also a realist. . Hence i try to breakup with him when my brain tells me that men don't leave.. but.my heart loves him so much and we talk about a future together. He said the kids are what keep him there.

And I will not manipulate to make him leave..I don't want him to blame me for not seeing his kids. So I guess I wait ... and hopefully the answer will be obvious. I hope. Good luck ladies. .only someone who is in this can understand. I used to judge women in this situation. Now I understand them.